just because you’re the mother, it doesn’t make you right.
in fact, i don’t even care who’s right and who’s wrong because all i wanted to do was to explain my stand.
but you flared up.
you started going on about how rude i am, how i think i’m all so high-and mighty because i’m 18.
and when i opened my mouth to tell you i never thought that way, you stood up yelling, and threatened to hit me.
perhaps it was a good thing it was only a threat, because if you had hit me, whatever little respect i have for you would have ebbed away.
don’t go about telling me how i can move out of the house if i can’t stand you scolding me, because one day, i just might.
i don’t mind you scolding me, i just can’t tolerate you being unreasonable.
and for accusing me of lying, ‘cuse me, but who was the one rummaging through my bag, then putting on a false front and telling me if was cause you needed to use my bag when you spotted me?
and don’t tell me how i’ll understand when i become a mother in the future because if i ever do, i won’t be one like you.
oh, and for your mothers’ day gift, i was thinking … perhaps anger management classes?
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i can’t believe i still have so much anger in me even after crying insanely in the bathroom.
fuck it.

Breathe.
Be in control when she loses control
It may easy for me to say, but i know it isn’t easy at all after going through it oh so many times
Comment by Ting — December 14, 2007 @ 11:06 am
it really isn’t easy. the anger at being maligned, at her being so unreasonable, just consumes me.
i’m going to try though. and i might have to start talking to her first, because she’s ignoring me and it’s not making things easy for the ppl at home.
thank you for your advice. i appreciate it.
and i hope things go well for you too.
Comment by Administrator — December 14, 2007 @ 2:45 pm
ha. this post made me thought of my mummy.. she said the same thing to me, too. Though the reason why she and i quarrel isn’t because she searched my bag..
ha. i don’t know what’s more can i say to u..
*hug*
Comment by faith — December 14, 2007 @ 2:46 pm
faith: oh, the reason why she and i quarrelled wasn’t because of the bag. in fact, i didn’t even bring up the bag issue at all. if i did, she wld be even unhappier because that wld portray her as the baddie. it was because of some other stuff.
it’s alright, it’s enough that you care enough to comment.
thank you. *hugs*
Comment by Administrator — December 14, 2007 @ 2:57 pm
Still, do try to understand her plight. -aileen
Comment by Administrator — December 14, 2007 @ 7:16 pm
Eil, I share the exact same sentiments and you should understand we’re almost always the same when it comes to mother situations. *big hug* I hope you’re feeling better now, mom and I on cold war as well. Attitude all over. Tsk.
Comment by Thiang — December 14, 2007 @ 8:43 pm
Hey AI-leen. =) It’s okay, I had multiple quarrels with my mum too and momo will agree at the bottom line they will just say, because i’m your mother. And the moving out thing… everytime i feel like moving to my fathers place, but oh well, she’s still your mum. She’ll grow on you at a later stage in life. Anyway, take care and like the above comment, B-R-E-A-T-H-E
Comment by shy — December 15, 2007 @ 8:17 am
aileen: aye, i just apologised to her when you’re asleep sis.
thiang: i guess one of us have to give in sooner or later. sigh.
shy: really, all mothers are that unreasonable? and yes, things are better now.
Comment by Administrator — December 15, 2007 @ 3:36 pm